MY LIFE STEPS IN A OTHER WORLD OF CIRCUMSTANCES
I’m a young man just trying too figure it all out.
I feel like I’m searching for something, but i don’t know what it is.
I wake up and i want it, I go to sleep at night and i dream about it. I need it.
My mind is always on the hunt.
I feel like the person i am now will never find it.
The real me cant reach it.
this makes me constantly lie.
lying to change myself. I lie to people who don’t know the real me.
I can be anybody i want to be. At school im the cool guy and easy to get along with,
and at my families im the tough guy with no fear.
I lie so much i hate myself.
I hate myself for not being real but fake.
I’m always pretending to be someone else.
that’s why my life is a multiple personality.
i want to be real! I want to take my plastic heart out and fill my body with my pure blood.
I want people to like me for me not just one of the made up characters.
I want the real things in life.
i want to change for a living.
Just can’t imagine myself how life things changed,
I’ve confessed my life,
my true personality too my closes friends,
and gladly all of them accepted me as a human being,
and still treat me as a human being.,
although i still lie at the others eyes,
as long as you don’t step anyone else,
they won’t hurt you.
Respect them they will respect you back.
what if i still deny,
and i don’t show my true me,
is there any chance ?
i don’t think so,
i think I’m still backstabbing myself and dating girls not even satisfied on what I’m doing
its like, why should i fit myself in a small hole which is not meant to be,
my life circulates in a different world already.,
and all of a sudden many things happened and changed.
many people are asking me why?
why all of a sudden?
i answered back
i also don’t know why.,
one thing for sure i just fallowed my heart,
